Saturday, August 11, 2007
bruise that's worth it!
ever since i can remember, one of my biggest dreams is to be part of the PEP squad... to be a real cheerleader. but one thing was hindering me from marching right up to there tables to join: It was the fact that i don't have any history in gymnastics and watching the videos of the performances of different universities, i have observed that all of them know how to do the split, back walk, back hand spring, and a lot more stunts. And because the only stunt i know how to do is the cart-wheel, and that i didn't take gymnastics, i thought i was not good enough for the PEP.
Because of the career path I'm taking, i have to go to UPM. That's when my dream of being one of the pep went right down the drain. I tried to find any way to be part of the PEP eventhough im in UPM. I'm thinking, maybe their training is every other day most especially wednesdays and saturdays where im very available but it was just not meant to be. they train everyday from 6-10 pm. i can't train that late, diliman is just very far from my home.
Dancing is my passion and 4 years without real dancing is just long enough. The fact that the PEP is in diliman and i am in Manila won't stop me from dancing once again. In UPM i found Indayog, and it was love at first sight.
its been a month since I've first met them personally and within that month i have learned a lot of things already. and i have been very happy.
being with indayog changes my belief that it's too late to learn what gymnasts can do.
last saturday they went to rizal gymnasium to learn new stunts and i came along. hanging out there, i realized that all the things/stunts that gymnasts do don't take years to learn but only weeks [if you train everyday hehe]. its the practice and mastery to be great in their field that's what they've been doing for years. i may not be able to aquire the level in which i could compete in gymnastics, but i could learn just enough to be great in my field: DANCING.
i went there today alone. indayog had a competition to audition to that's why they couldn't come. Being independent, i had the freedom to choose the coach that i already knew though my bestfriend therese. hehe. in today's session, i met Kuya Dave [a third year BA in diliman, a member of the UP Pep]. Like me, he was there to learn gymnastics. and through him i learned that not all members of the Pep know how to do the stunts, him being one of the examples. it was also through him that i learned that you dont have to be already great when you enter groups like the UP Pep. You could be as simple as a clay and they'll be the ones to mold you into the best one in town. There i also met Kuya Dico, he is a member of the RP team in gymnastics. this guy is great. eventhough he's one of the experts na, he's still open to help amateurs like kuya dave and I. through kuya dico, i learned that things like split could still be learned at our age. Isipin nyo! may chance na akong makapag-split! wooohooo!
It is such a great feeling of fulfillment to have all of these chances infront of me. a great dancer who does a lot of stunts is the person i want to achieve. and knowing i still have a chance to be that person is fulfilling already.
one more thing, today i also bumped into the coach who helped us in our cheeing piece when i was a sophomore in masci. this is how our conversation went:
[while i was practicing my back walk]
coach: ang lakas naman pala e
ako: ahehhehehe... sir may tanong po ako sa inyo!
coach: ano un?
ako: familiar po kasi kayo sa akin e. kaso dko po alam kung saan ko kayo nkta
coach: kaw din familiar sa akin. kaya nga knina pa kta pinagmamasdan e kasi parang kilala kita
ako: ay ganun po ba... tanong ko lang po... nagturo po ba kau ng cheering noon sa masci?
coach: oo.. kayo un di ba? sabi na nga ba e.. kayo ung kasama nina therese!
ako: opo!
coach: kamusta na nga pla ung si therese? san ba xa ngayon?
ako: UPd po xa.. PEp po xa..
coach: ahh ganun ba... buti naman... atleast napapractice parin nya skills nya.. kaw? team ka ba?
ako: team? what do u mean po? varsity? la po sports sa min e UPM po ako.. sayaw po oo
coach: ahh UPM... indayog ka?
ako: opo! alam nyo po un?
coach: nagturo na ako sa knila.. dun sa studio nyo... bkt d ka mag-pep? sayang naman
ako: med po kasi ako e kaya UPM... pero gusto ko po sana
coach: mag UST ka... salinggawi.... ung built mo ksi tipong pang salinggawi e...
ako: nagtuturo din po kayo sknila?
coach: uu dati minsan... mag UST ka!
ako: UPM po ako e...
coach: o cge... sayang.... cge alis na ako... see you next time ulit a! good luck!
[it for you to find out the reason why i posted this particular conversation.. ]
[btw ung title ko kaya gnyan is because may pasa ako ngayon dahil sa audition ko kahapon for compet pool.. i fell.. it hurt... but it's worth it! its worth the try and experience]
~oOo~RottenButSweet~oOo~ [10:53 PM]
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Tuesday, July 24, 2007
indayog babies batch 13
BATCH 13
[1st Row: Maruu, Arman, Andi, Me, Missy, Moi, Candice]
[2nd Row: ___, Jean, Eric, ____ 3rd row: JB]
SENTI MODE
[standing L-R: Andi... Candice]
[sitting L-R: JB, Eric, Moi, Missy, Me]
[L-R: Me, Andi, Missy, Moi, Candice, Arman]
eto ang mga ka-batch ko sa indayog... sama sama kaming i-huhulma ng aming mga ate at kuya para maging isang ganap na indayog... wahahhaha... iilan pa lamang yan sa batch 13.. ung iba kasi nag-si-uwian na... hehehhe... as of now kami palang ang camwhores... wahahahah... unang araw palang ng pagsasama picture na kaagad ang inatupag.. ahhaha... aking lang ipinagdarasal ay sana magsama kami hanggang sa huli!
WALANG QUIT QUIT!!!!
THE ADVISER [Sr. Joey]
This is what we do aside from dancing...
[James]
[Kuya Dan]
[Kuya JR]
~oOo~RottenButSweet~oOo~ [11:32 PM]
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Sunday, July 15, 2007
officially indayog
last night was full of tension.
i was so much scared for the first time in how many years.
all my hopes in qualifying for indayog tumbled down.
they found out about my s* issue.
a thing that's been pressing my mind hard.
joining that group passed my mind
but if i were to chose between that and indayog,
i would definitely choose indayog.
but last night was terrible,
i found out that my qualification was troubled because the indayog found out that i was being recruited.
that s* made my head hurt for how many days
and now, it's making me lose the one thing i ever wanted to join in UP
all night was terrible.
i kept thinking about the two.
its not about choosing between the two
but on how i hate that s* thing for placing my qualification in hot waters.
now im worried if i'd be accepted or not
and because of the s* issue my chance of qualifying was getting smaller
O GOD...
today was the same...
i was suppose to prepare for a long test tom..
but my mind was so preoccupied with worries
and my whole system was down.
all i ever did today was lie down and think and worry.
worrying makes me weak.
and weak makes me sleep.
all day i was sleeping.
but this afternoon, while i was trying to find something to listen to that will not remind me of what i was worrying about...
a text suddenly freed me from my worries
and gave me back my energy
"Hi marnelli.. Bab to, ntxt knb n gege na pmasa ka sa auditions?
o wel, i jst wnt 2 make sure na hindi ka ttuloy sa edit..
ako bahala sayo, wg ka mtakot.."
waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhh!!
TALAGANG HINDI NA
DAHIL DUN MUNTIK NA AKONG DI MAKAPASA...
pinasakit na nga ulo ko, pinanganib pa indayog membership ko..
anywayzz... im in.. im officially one of the indayog na!
yehey!
ahahhahaha
nobody can't explain how happy i am today
dancing is my passion
and i found happiness IN indayog
not only for dancing
but because of the people in it
i am now part of their family
and im proud of it
wooooooh!!
ahahhahahhaha
not only will my passion be satisfied
my skills would also be developed
di lang sa sayaw!
pati na rin sa stunts!
weeee!
watch out for me!!!
if now i have the talent in dancing
abangan nyo pag naging halimaw na ako
sa pagsasayaw!!
bwahahahha
nga pala..
number 3 ako sa mga nag-auditions sa indayog sa taong ito
wahahhahaa...
#3 of Set A
out of 6 sets and at most 15-20 auditionist per set...
addict noh?
ang aga ko nag-audition
di naman ako excited
advice nila kc agahan ko para konti lang manonood
tama nga cla
wala maxado nakapanood ng audition ko
konting mga indayog lang at walang others
not like sa other sets.. lahat ng indayog nakapanood
and may mga others pa.. tulad ko..
wahahhahaha
thanks to all my friends who prayed for me...
i love you all
~oOo~RottenButSweet~oOo~ [11:44 PM]
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Tuesday, July 10, 2007
indayog
these are the people whom I share the same passion....
meet my newly found ate's and kuya's...
and i hope.. soon to be family...
[L-R] Renee (kapwa freshie BSSP),, ate CJ (alumni),, ate aly,, sir joey (indayog adviser),, kuya dan (stunt guys),, Ate leslie (handstand girl) woooh!!
last friday toh sa mcdo after ng workshop.. even though participant lang kami.. they invited us to join them eat.. bait noh?? madami ang mga indayog pero yan lang ang kumain sa mcdo dat time...
these are my two new ate/kuya friend sa indayog...
kwela sila and mabait sa mga baguhan tulad namin...
kahit di pa ako nag-au-audition.. they treat me as a friend na...
sa kaliwa si kuya dan na super warm ang welcome and encouragement sa aming mga freshies...
he's the one na nag-iinvite samin na mag-audition and masarap magpalakas ng loob yan everytime na makagawa ka ng stunt through his loud.. "WWWOOOAAAHHH"
sa kanan naman si ate leslie.. ang kalog at mabait na ate sa indayog.. she's the patient one na nagtuturo ng handstand sa aming mga baguhan... she teaches you as if member ka na ng indayog.. ganun sila ka-generous... mabait si ate leslie.. kalog pa...
through this two people i feel so welcomed... sila ang nagpakita sa akin na di nakakatakot ang sumali sa indayog... through them i felt welcome to join... because of their warmness i even felt one of them na...
i really am determined to join the indayog because i love dancing.. but now i have one more purpose in joining... i want to be part of their family.. i want to continue hanging out with them.. i want them to be my friends... ang saya nila kasama.. hindi lang dancing ang habol ko ngayon sa indayog.. kundi ang mga tao narin...
~oOo~RottenButSweet~oOo~ [12:10 AM]
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Monday, June 25, 2007
jeepney rides
sa araw-araw kong pagba-biyahe ngayon papasok sa UP at pauwi sa bahay, aking napag-tuunan ng pansin ang madalas kong pagkaka-sabay sa mga lalaking "gentleman". hindi ko lang lubos maisip kung bakit ngayon lang ako nakaka-sabay sa mga ganitong mga klaseng mga binata. ngayon lang na nasa kolehiyo na ako.
ito ba'y sa kadahilanan na ako'y nasa kolehiyo na at maluwag na ang oras at kasabay na ng halos lahat ng mga kolehiyo umuwi kumpara sa dati kong uwi sa mataas na paaralang pang-agham ng maynila kung saan ang klase ay natatapos ng alas-sais ng gabi
o sadyang ganito lang ang mga lalake kapag nakakita na ng dalagang naka-"shades", may pintura ang mukha, at may mga palamuti sa katawan.... at hindi simpleng asul na uniporme at sabog-sabog na ayos ang suot... hayyy..
~oOo~RottenButSweet~oOo~ [10:30 PM]
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Sunday, June 17, 2007
new life.. new friends
my first 3 days in UP was just amazing. I assumed that on the first few weeks i will only be with my friends from masci, aby and sam but it didn't. Aside from them, i am with other girls. i never expected to have a new group of friends only on the first day.
UP opened last wednesday June 13, 2007 but it was just a whole day orientation (University orientation in the morning and college orientation in the afternoon). Well, some of the orientation's parts were entertaining but you really cant avoid to be sleepy in some parts because the air con works quite excellent in tempting us to sleep. what i looked forward to see was the intermission number of the UP manila indayog dance varcity. i wanted to see what kind of dances they do and if i could manage to follow their steps. fortunately, the dances were that of my interest. their music made me rock. their steps were of my forte. i just hope i would be accepted. i looked around, and i saw a lot of familiar faces... those of my previous school. it is because of this that the idea of entering a whole new world does not sound so scary. it seems quite a bit funny. it's as if UP is just an extension of our former school. it helps so much that i know a lot of people and i know the area. after the orientation almost all the mascians mutually decided to meet up right outside the entrance. there i saw my old friends. and also my old enemies. the world isn't balanced without them. anyway, we all decided to eat at the old robinsons but we were all shocked to see for the first time our dear rob fully packed with human beings. hahahha! for an hour we weren't able to find a place to eat cause all of the restaurants and fast food chain were packed, even the food court. so we settled in buying from plato wraps and bread talk. after that pauline, aby and i proceeded to the cph audi for the cph orientation. i assumed it would also be boring, but i went anyway to see my possible blockmates. when the orientation was done i was tensed for the next day. it would be the official start of the classes. first day of meeting the profs. and my first ever class in UP is PE1. unfortunately, aby and sam's pe is on mondays while mine is on thursdays. i was tensed because i have no one to be with on my first class. how sad. i tried to ask a few PH students if they belong to block 22 and if their PE is on thursday. Unfortunately, i found none. I was very tensed for the next day because one of the things I do not like is being alone. But i opened my mind and thought of it as a way to meet new friends.
Thursday came. I was alone. I walked the street of Pedro Gil hoping that I won't be late. I came to the place called SSWC and there were a lot of students already. i didn't know what to do because whenever i am alone my brain doesn't work well. i headed straight for the guard in charge and according to him our prof is still not around. so, for a while i panicked coz i dont know where or whom to go to while waiting. i scanned the faces standing in front of the building and luckily i saw one familiar one. it was nikko, the boy who was in front of me in all enrollment activities (from medical to enrollment to parent's confe to pshyc test to college orientation). i approached him assuming that he knows me too because we've greeted each other in every activity mentioned. Nikko was with a girl, Julliene. i greeted them as i approach and asked them what's the latest news on PE. We introduced ourselves and had a conversation. After a while a group of girls approached us. I figured they were our block mates coz one was familiar to me. If nikko was always infront of me in lines, Nhet was after me. Our group was a little bit larger. As usual, we introduced each other again. and i was Marnelli. ha! first we talked about PE, wondering what will happen and where could the prof be and if he will actually attend. Next was a big bee [wasp ata tawag dun e hehe!] that was lurking around us and made some girls freak out. they were all nice. they were all fun to be with. everyone was friendly. on that moment also we immediately exchanged cellphone numbers. then we all began to joke around kaagad. for freshmen on their first ever class, we were kind of noisy and wild. then we called people that we know are included in bsph. and we became larger. nhet and i were the noisiest and the wildest. we kidded around. on the other end of the bench we were sitting on were students that we think are also bsph. so nhet and i decided to approach them. YUp! they were also our block mates but we weren't able to convince them to join us on the other end because there were upper class men sitting in between our group and theirs. so nhet and i went back to our group. when we are deciding to leave because an our had passed already, a substitute came and oriented us. PE ended early and we have an hour before our next class. we have nothing much to do, and nowhere to go so we all went walking. just walking. but our fbc, ate rona, texted us to meet her at our kom rum. when we got there, i had a chance to talk to my other blockmates. there i got to talk to loren and ralph. hehe. a group of sophomores entered the room. we were tensed, thinking maybe we were in the wrong room. but they were the ones who left. then a teacher entered and said that our class were transferred to 304. so we transfered. we were a bit pissed because the room we went to was newly painted. it smelled awful. then after a while another teacher came and said our class was in GAB 304 not RH. ok. fine. lipat ulit. (pinaglalaruan ata kami). when we arrived at GAB 304, there was a class using it. the prof in that class adviced us to ask the OCR about our room. when we got there we found an fbc. thanks to her we found the list of new room assignments.. and guess what... our class was on GAB 306, the room with the guy who asked us if that was our room. hayyy.
we never came back to 306 due to exhaustion. we all decided to eat at rob. the upper class men of bsph were inviting us to eat with them. they were all kind and funny. i was glad they were warm to us freshmen. our next class was natsci and there we met the other half of the block. i was reunited with sam and abi so i sat with them, but still near with nhet and the other girls. sitting beside abi was jem, so i talked to him. at first he was a bit shy, but when we were teasing sam about a boy, his "pagka-kalog" came out. then i came back to my new friends and we hanged-out. we talked about our past love lifes. hehe. then we asked one of our guy block mate, JOseph, to join our circle. and then we interviewed him on his past love life. nagkwento naman xa. haha. that part of the day was so much fun. it made the idea of new life happy for me.
then our next class was math 17 but the prof still didn't come. instead, our fbc , ate rona, met us. she oriented us about the policies and activities in UP. we voted our blockhead (nikko), mr. and ms. freshie (joseph and monica).. pati pala ass. of the blockhead ('oble".. dave) the choosing of the mr. freshie was interesting. having only 7 boys in our block, we all decided to let them one by one face monica so we could see who has the most chemistry with her. and the winner was JOseph.
that was our last class. and we can go home already. my new friends (nhet, nina, loren, monica and myra) asked to meet tom morning so we could altogether go to the univ. lib to get our id's counter-signed. i felt happy! because even though it was only the first day, it felt as if we knew each other for a long time. we talk and kid around like long time friends. and i was very happy to have friends kagad on the first day.
on the third day, while i was on my way to UP, they texted me and asked where was I. i planned not to go to the library because i still have no 1x1 picture but they still remembered me. when i asked cno cno sila, i found out that all the girls i was able to hang out with on the first day was there. completo! pati si sam. on that moment i felt touched. it was an enigmatic feeling. i dont know how it all happened but we were kind of a "barkada" on the first day palang ng klase. cool kaya! i hope our friendship will last until we all graduate. hehehe.. the greatest part of the day was when we all hanged-out at the stairs of the cph bldg after classes because it was still early. we talked about a lot of things. i found out why we became friends so fast. truly, "birds with the same feather DO flock together". we have so much similarities: in personality, in experiences, in life. but above all, i am so glad i found them. Having them makes it easier to face the new life in UP. it makes me feel home and happy. i thank GOD na first day palang kasama ko na kaagad sila..
:p
~oOo~RottenButSweet~oOo~ [10:15 PM]
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Saturday, June 9, 2007
eww
this is a short post to express what i feel right now....
Why is it that most of the people that i want and expected to get rid off and not see anymore are also IN University of the Philippines Manila... buti sana if isa lang or 2 but no, most of them that i dont like are in UPM.... why are they in manila??? why??? why not diliman???? why also in manila??? WHY?????
~oOo~RottenButSweet~oOo~ [1:01 AM]
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Thursday, June 7, 2007
last minute
today was my last gimmick for this summer. For the whole months of April and May I wasn't able to go out much. One reason is that I did have a lot of things to prepare for my debut and my schedule was packed. Another is that my mother won't let me go out much for some reason I don't know. She just wants me to stay and be bored here at home. But I won't allow my summer to be totally boring. That is why I am using these last two weeks to the fullest. I set last minute hang outs as many as I can.
Imagine.. one Saturday (june 2, 2007) PH, Ralph, Therese and I met for our Alpha course... but that morning I suddenly felt like swimming so i persuaded all 3 to swim also. And on the spot, without any stuff for swimming.. we all swam.. luckily PH and ralph always carry extra clothes in their bags... wahahahhaha...
now i realized that classes will start next week. and i still want to have more fun! one night in moa i was watching the people skate in the ice rink.. and i suddenly felt like skating....
so i texted the people who are always on the go for lakwatcha.
ralph and ph.. (everyday may lakad.. di kaso ang money.. wooooh!)
therese (kaso hindi pinayagan)
thea (maglilipat bahay)
nino (maraming pera at go parin lagi!)
aby (isa pang lakwatsera)
in short "nagsama-sama ang mga lakwatsera" because in this time of the year.. usually people have no more money because it is the end of summer... but still no classes from where to get extra money...
so there.. with just one day of invitation... it was set! we were going to skate in moa in the morning and play badminton in the afternoon..
our meeting time is 9:30.. we're the ones who will open moa..
i was late because of traffic.. it was already past ten.. and i decided to meet nino in value point... aby texted to wait for her too in value point so it was almost 11 when we left vpoint...
it was past 11 and we cant see any sign of ralph at the rink... (un pala nag maniax)...
when we found him... weeeeeeeeee!.. skating time!!!!
after that we decided to eat.. where?.. there was a debate and i was forced to act as an ate just to come out with a decision.... pizza hut bistro....
the pizza hut part was fun!... i was wild.. haha.. the ordering part was funny because ralph and i were always complaining about the prices... on the other hand nino and aby are not minding the prices... tsk tsk tsk... we ordered cheesy pops! and two bottomless ice tea... and i insisted on sitting on a round sofa... i liked it coz it looks like a jacuzzi with a table.. wahahaha.... waiting for the food was a little long... so while we wait we talked about a lot of things... one of which is arvilind pagtalunan... nothing negative... this is just because ralph was writing on her message notebook... hahahah...
after that we visited timezone for a while ... well, you cant blame us... we have with us two guyz addicted to dance maniax..
after that we took a taxi to badminton city... we weren't able to catch the "unlimited play" time range... so we paid 200 per hour.. and because our bugdet for badminton was only 60 per person.. we only paid for one hour... though one hour lang,, we were able to have so much fun naman.. hahaha.. shorts versus jogging pants.. ralp and i wore shorts while aby and nino were in jogging pants... i had fun... at least the groupings were fair coz in each group there was an experienced (mga sanay mag badminton: ralph nino).. and there was also an amateur (matagal nang di nagbabadminton: aby bea) i had so much fun... there was no competition... no scoring.. we were all there playing just to burn energy and perspire... and we had so much fun... after that we all took a shower and went home....
thanks guys for being game for everything.. you helped me enjoy my last few weeks of summer... thank you very much.. i hope there would be more! see you in alpha course!!
~oOo~RottenButSweet~oOo~ [9:54 PM]
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Thursday, May 31, 2007
friendships
dati, i thought that i was the only one who treasure my friends... that they don't treasure me as much as i do them... they don't care about me... and i feel taken for granted... because often than not we don't talk and bond that much even though were in the same school...
but...
having what happened this summer.. i realized that true friends really are true... they don't have to be by your side literally to be called as a "friend by your side"... in fact you'll even realize that the people who are always with you are those people you are not sure will stay forever... usually, those people who are true aren't seen with you 24/7 but is there when you expect them not to be... and you'll be surprised with what they can do just for the sake of your friendship...
i am so touched with what my friends have done for me this past few weeks... they have sacrificed their summer just to help me with my debut... they are the ones very willing to be with me... even those who i rarely talk to in my 4 years stay in masci even showed great amounts of effort... haha.. even though they have experienced a lot of things along the way.. they still continue to help.... one even surprised me... even though he got robbed in the other party, he didn't allow that experience to stop him from helping me with mine... even without communication he managed to be present in all rehearsals... IMAGINE THAT!... no communications at all... no text no calls.. no ym.... with me.,... but he managed to get to our house and rehearse.... wow! galing.... nice one! and kahit medyo OP xa... go go parin... love ko talaga sila....
also.... i realized how greatly treasured i am according to their messages... i never thought that my getting them together for lakwatsa means so much to them... naiinis na nga ako kc lagi na lang ako nag-aasikaso nun... but i thought maybe im just the person right for the job... hehehe...
basta this is all what i can say... true friends are more like the wind... rarely seen but so much essential... so much useful... and so much true...
it is more important that even though you dont get to see or talk to each other often, your friendship still stays than a being with them 24/7 but next year the friendship is gone....
~oOo~RottenButSweet~oOo~ [12:30 AM]
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Tuesday, May 29, 2007
a night to remember
words can't describe the feeling...
just let these pictures tell you the story!
i would like to thank...
all the people who helped me put together this debut...
all who came...
all who gave me these gifts....
i love you all....
thank you very much for making me...
HAPPY!!
~oOo~RottenButSweet~oOo~ [7:28 PM]
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